Fifth gen M'sian filmmakers; are they revolutionists? (Part 1)

When I first started writing the paper, I didn't know where to begin and when to stop. I kept on writing and writing ... only to realize after 1 month that the subjects in the paper were not something that I'm trying to study...mmph so I started rewriting it. I had learned a lot during the process ... some through my readings, some through observations, some through studies of the films but the most important aspect was learning from various people. It's amazing to discover that the films are not merely about its subject and the filmmaker, but it's actually about the spirit of everyday Malaysian (If you had watched The Big Durian & 10 Tahun Sebelum Merdeka, you would understand my sentiment). 

The title of the paper would suggest something indie and upbeat. Yes, that is what I want to achieve. However, the paper is much more important to me. I contemplated many times before I finalized the paper...you see the subject of my paper is touche: What equal rights mean for all Malaysians? Many articles have been written about the subject, many by the non Malays, few by the Malays. I was taught early in my research to consider all angles before deciding on a solid stand. So, I was considering what exactly it means for a Malay to address the issue of inequality? That brought me back to the memory when I was 15 when my teacher asked me, how do I feel if the royal status in Malaysia is being stripped off (This was back in 1993). I figured ... I'm always the privileged one. Not only I'm the protected race but I also inherited the blue blood. But exactly what are my privileges? 


My study is more of a self-discovery process. Not only the non Bumiputera wants equality, I too as the privileged one wants equality. I sincerely  think that without the privileges, I too can become someone great. I refuse to be defined by my title...YM or by my race. I'm proud of my background but I want to be able to define myself and not being restrained by who people think I should be. 


The second part of this entry on the actual paper will have to wait until I figure out who I want to be :)